Still Here

Yes. I know. It has been a while since I last shared my thoughts and insights with you. The past few months have been spent in deep gratitude and reflection. I have assisted my husband in his physical, mental and emotional recovery after this second heart attack. Each day had been another measure of the goodness of God. I have so often thought of the many different ways that this all could have gone wrong. But it didn't, and for that, I am very thankful.


As normalcy returns to my life, I can once again focus my attention back on my blog, the purpose of which was let you know that you are not alone on your journey towards healing. So often I am astonished, ( as you may be too) that I live the conventional life that I do. It is a testament to our persistent inner strength, all of us survivors; we came out on top, and not the bottom as some had hoped. Leaving the past behind is a formidable task, as much as we labor to create distance between ourselves and what was, we actually manage to hitch it behind fluttering, as we progress forward. It will forever, try as we might to shake it, be an eternal part of us.



The holidays will be upon us shortly. That means shopping, cooking, baking, and the gathering of family and friends. My daughter has insisted we make the same gingerbread cookies we made when she was three, complete with gumdrop eyes and buttons. We will do that and more. Even though her belief in Santa, elves and reindeer is long gone, I will still provide the magic that is Christmas. We are together and nothing could be better than that.



Still here.



Andi